What Really Happened at Auschwitz

“THE STUPIDITY OF MAN IS BEYOND COMPREHENSION OF HIS OWN IGNORANCE”

What really died at Auschwitz? Here’s an interesting viewpoint. The following is a copy of an article written by Spanish writer Sebastian Vilar Rodriguez and published in a Spanish newspaper. It doesn’t take much imagination to extrapolate the message to the rest of Europe – and possibly to the rest of the world.

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(My only Jewish photo)

I walked down the streets in Barcelona and suddenly discovered a terrible truth – Europe died in Auschwitz . . .
We killed six million Jews and replaced them with 20 million Muslims. In Auschwitz we burned a culture, thought, creativity, talent. We destroyed the chosen people, truly chosen, because they produced great and wonderful people who changed the world.

The contribution of these people is felt in all areas of life: science, art, international trade, and above all, as the conscience of the world. These are the people we burned.

And under the pretense of tolerance, and because we wanted to prove to ourselves that we were cured of the disease of racism, we opened our gates to 20 million Muslims, who brought us stupidity and ignorance, religious extremism and lack of tolerance, crime and poverty, due to an unwillingness to work and support their families with pride.

They have blown up our trains and turned our beautiful Spanish cities into the third world, drowning in filth and crime. Shut up in the apartments they receive free from the government, they plan the murder and destruction of their naive hosts.

And thus, in our misery, we have exchanged culture for fanatical hatred, creative skill for destructive skill, intelligence for backwardness and superstition. We have exchanged the pursuit of peace of the Jews of Europe and their talent for a better future for their children, their determined clinging to life because life is holy, for those who pursue death, for people consumed by the desire for death for themselves and others, for our children and theirs.

What a terrible mistake was made by miserable Europe .

Recently, the UK debated whether to remove The Holocaust from its school curriculum because it ‘offends’ the Muslim population which claims it never occurred. It is not removed as yet. However, this is a frightening portent of the fear that is gripping the world and how easily each country is giving in to it.

It is now approximately seventy years after the Second World War in Europe ended. This is being sent as a memorial chain, in memory of the six million Jews, twenty million Russians, ten million Christians, and nineteen-hundred Catholic priests who were ‘murdered, raped, burned, starved, beaten, experimented on and humiliated. Now, more than ever, with Iran, among others, claiming the Holocaust to be ‘a myth,’ it is imperative to make sure the world never forgets.

This is intended to reach 400 million people. Be a link in the memorial chain and help distribute this around the world.

How many years will it be before the attack on the World Trade Center ‘NEVER HAPPENED’ because it offends some Muslim in the United States? If our Judeo-Christian heritage is offensive to Muslims, they should pack up and move to Iran , Iraq or some other Muslim country.

It will take only a minute to pass this along. We must wake up America before it’s too late.

(Note:  Article from 10/16)

My Experience With Antifa

I’m sure you’ve heard the word “antifa” in the news! Antifa, or anti-fascists, have claimed responsibility for hundreds of protests in the last few years, especially this summer. They’ve marched, harassed, vandalized, or set on fire Federal buildings, white/black businesses, & state/federal statues. I follow several ‘streamers’ in Portland, OR and other cities, who post real life videos, so I’m up to date.

Antifa should be separated from BLM, the black identity group. Some in BLM have legitimate complaints, but the leaders have posted an online statement that is a broad political/ethnic agenda based on Marxist, anti-god principles. The group has often used violence and members have called for the end to ‘white supremacy’ by any means possible.

Antifa are a growing conglomeration of independent and organized groups of mostly youth who are either anti-Federal Govt, anti-Trump, anti-Ice or anti-police. They might be a group of university students, socialists, anarchist, criminals or street people often struggling with sexual identity. I’ve tweeted with dozens of them, I read their bio’s & how they describe themselves. It’s no secret.

They’ve racked up millions upon millions of dollars in damage & police over-time. They’ve caused some city governments considerable grief and havoc. There’s great debate over who’s funding them, as many who are arrested at the scenes of destructive protests have come from out of state, someone has to be paying for their flights, hotels, car rentals, etc. What person or group wants to create such chaos and destruction to America?

My introduction to antifa was several years ago when a Hispanic guy on Facebook shared his trips to Berkeley, CA with friends to stand up for the ‘flag’. I guess I thought the UCB students were young & didn’t like the political Right speaking at their university. This guy shared on FB videos of a group in yelling matches with what I thought were vicious sounding radical college students.

This was at the beginning of the period where Left leaning students were angry or afraid about anyone who had patriotic views, (before Trump). I don’t know if they thought the speakers would incite violence, or if they simply disagreed with their views, but the people on the Right were often shouted down, or simply denied the right to speak on campus. If you look back, the Left has been growing in numbers and intensely agitating against free speech for conservatives.

I remember a couple years ago Chuck Todd hesitantly interviewing Mark Bray, a Dartmouth lecturer, on Face the Nation. Chuck said he was not really interested in giving ‘violence’ a voice, but in the interest of ‘fairness’ he’d interview Mr. Bray. I was sick to my stomach listening to them. Antifa, according to Mr. B’s book & interview, “have the right to use clubs to beat down the Alt Right”. He was straight faced and unapologetic in stating the use of violence was an essential part of beating back any foe.

Since no news site has reported organized alt-right hate groups, we can only surmise that the Left’s fear of conservatives speaking at universities is unfounded! There are small isolated groups of white militia but I’ve not read of any KKK groups, skinheads organizing to topple American federal buildings, statues, businesses, defund the police or protesting against blacks ….. or the MSM would be all over it! There’s actually been a reverse reaction going on as in the last several years it’s become popular to have ‘progressives’ in city or state govt, but in fact they are many times citing Leftist, socialist views. They aren’t just old time Democrats or progressives but are entrenched in Leftist jargon. And these leaders are afraid of or blind to the threat from anarchists like antifa.

I’ve watched resistance movements grow since the 2012 Occupy Wall Street movement in Portland, OR, a city I’ve visited many times. There’s always some new catchy phrase describing their ‘moral’ objective, but their means is always to create a violent setting to destroy American values, laws. They prefer to work underground, and instruct their members in propaganda. Their violent tactics go beyond the streets and include stalking of leaders, phone or online harassment, bombing, threats to family members and jobs..

This is the type of issue that police and strong leaders are dealing with, and the more informed we are of antifa, the better. They attack billionaires, political leaders, ordinary people, no one is immune.

We need to vote for those who are aware of anarchist groups, so we protect our nation. We need to help people remove the blinders so they aren’t fearful of street violence and protect themselves!

Our Distressed Culture

Sharing an excellent article!
Since our culture is going thru dramatic shifts this may help to clarify issues like the recent protests, the drastic change in liberal ideals, tribal identities, immolation of many team sports, and university crack-ups –

Cultural Suicide Is Painless

In February, New York was the world’s most dynamic metropolis. By August, the city was more like the ruins of Ephesus. It is not all that hard to blow up a culture. You can do it in a summer if you haven’t much worry about others.

When you loot and burn a Target in an hour, it takes months to realize there are no more neighborhood Target-stocked groceries, toilet paper, and Advil to buy this winter.

You can in a night assault the police, spit at them, hope to infect them with the coronavirus, and even burn them alive. But when you call 911 in a few weeks after your car is vandalized, your wallet is stolen, and your spouse is violent, and no one comes, only then do you sense that you earlier were voting for a pre-civilized wilderness.

You can burn down a Burger King in half an hour. But it will take years to find anyone at Burger King, Inc., who would ever be dumb enough to rebuild atop the charred ruins—to prepare for the next round of arson in 2021 or 2023.

Today’s looter carrying off sneakers and smartphones in 10 years will be tomorrow’s urban activist, understandably but in vain demanding stores return to a charred no man’s land, to do their fair share, and to help restore the downtown, neighborhood, inner-city, or the “community.”

Old Liberal Ideas Are Being Destroyed

We are living in the most racially polarized climate since the 1960s. America’s past, present, and future are in the process of being recalibrated entirely through the lens of one’s skin color. Columbus is reduced to nothing more than another racist white Italian sailor of a half-millennium past. Grant might as well have fought for slavery in the mind of today’s campus ignoramus. Apparently, the Antifa thug thinks he could just as easily have written the Gettysburg Address or sculpted a statue of Frederick Douglass.

The old liberal ideas of assimilation, integration, and intermarriage are being destroyed by the Left under the specious doctrines of cultural appropriation, or “acting white” or “how we look is who we are.”

A new fuzzy Jim Crow returns with racially segregated campus safe spaces and theme houses or the race-based reeducation and training sessions in the workplace—all predicated to stop racism! Somehow selecting strangers on the basis of their race to bully in a restaurant, or targeting old anonymous men and women to beat up in the street by their race, or singling out suburbanites by their race for racial taunts and profanity is redefined as reparatory justice or overdue payback—on the assumption that no one would dare say that the arson, looting, and rhetoric are descending into ever more hate-filled nihilism.

Looking out on downtown Portland one morning –

Our collective future of nationalized tribalism will become what always results when citizens identify by superficial appearance or shared religion. Just go to Lebanon, the Balkans, or Iraq to see what is in store first hand.

Tribalism Rising

To survive, all groups will self-identify, at first quietly, but eventually unapologetically. Some will form alliances of self-preservation, others will war with each other. Tribal gangs, as they already do now in our streets of fire and looting, will assume they are exempt from consequences; and so will their antitheses of vigilantes who band together to guard their stores in the absence of a defunded police.

Liberal elite whites themselves are now uneasy, since the abstract doctrines they so nihilistically advocated, from defunding the police to recalibrating looting as “redistribution,” are now becoming reified and closer to home. They see that when BLM protestors jam a restaurant to demand fealty or lecture on “white privilege” or march into a suburb to wake up the commuter to apprise him of his immorality, the racialists will not qualify their agendas with “except for woke whites.”

When tribalism is distilled to its innate and terrifying essence, there are never exemptions for individuals: you are reduced to what you appear superficially as to strangers. The white felon is no different than the white Harvard president, the black shoplifter is the same as the black physicist. We are all condensed to a sort of collective nothingness, or rather a racial “allness.”

The Self-Immolation of Pro Sports

Professional sports, once an integral part of American life, appears to be nearly in ruins. Professional baseball, basketball, and football might have survived the virus, the lockdown, and the recession—and then maybe they might not have. After all, millions of the bored more quickly than expected got acculturated to the idea of soon not listening to a boring rant from LeBron James or the sad confessionals of Drew Brees.

But what the NBA and NFL, and perhaps MLB won’t survive is cultural suicide as players fragment into causes. The NBA existed on the premise that billionaires were willing to pay multimillionaires to lose billions as a prestige lark—as a franchise became a sort of a huge, showy Louis Vuitton bag. But even billionaires have limits. Snobbery and appearing cool do not always trump losing the equivalent of a Ferrari every hour or a Gulfstream each week.

The NBA, we are told, is a woke industry.

But it’s also the strangest, most nondiverse, right-wing, money-obsessed woke institution in America. More than three-quarters of the multimillionaire players are African-American. Over 90 percent of the billionaire team owners are white.

Yet the entire industry—players, coaches, owners, staff—lecture Americans ad nauseam about their supposed sins. The monotonous sermons have become transparent medieval redemptions—given the mortal sin that the NBA sold its very soul to a racist, genocidal, and totalitarian China—to recover billions abroad for the billions lost in viewership and attendance at home.

Nondiverse multimillionaires, working for even less diverse billionaires, finger-pointing at middle-class Americans on the evils of privilege, in the pay of the Chinese Communist Party, is not a way to win back fans.

Institutional Crack-Ups

Universities are in for hard times. The federal government eventually will get out of the $1.5 trillion student loan subsidy business, and force spendthrift colleges to accept their own self-created moral hazards. Charging $30,000-40,000 for tuition over Zoom is a bad business model in a recession. And the alphabet soups after the names of professors and deans will not make a bit of difference.

Thousands of college-educated protesters and rioters are not especially good advertisements for the building of lifelong character on woke university campuses. Once undergraduate institutions decided to make students socially conscious rather than educated, and once their graduates seem to be neither, then who really finds their mentors essential?

Our major cities, emerging from lockdown, and on the edge of nightly violence, remind us of what Procopius, the Byzantine historian, saw of Rome in AD 538, once the cultural and political megalopolis of the world: a mostly deserted shell of weeds, deserted streets, collapsed stone, choked fountains, and fortified villas where lawlessness reigned and feuding tribes were what was left of a government that once had enshrined habeas corpus.

No city gets a pass from history, not Athens, not Rome, not Alexandria—not Detroit, Baltimore, or Chicago.

After all, there is no rule that just because Bill Gates and Amazon headquartered in Seattle that its mayor, city council, and state governor will not abandon its signature downtown. What once made Portland great can be undone in a few weeks.

Wall Street may run the world, but it certainly does not run the New York City government. Electronic capital really does still have human legs and when the proverbial suited investor thinks he will be infected, short of toilet paper, or assaulted on the street, he leaves, taking his laptop with him. Bill de Blasio is left to govern, like a horned and bearded Visigoth, over an increasing shell of former grandeur.

To venture into San Francisco is to return in a time machine to 1855, a boomtown based on silicon chips, not gold dust, but one likewise lawless, fetid, and safe only for those with private security guards. To the casual visitor, it appears a lunatic place now recalibrated for the homeless, the looter, the assaulter—and the very rich. Crimes like public defecation and drug use, or shattering the windows of a parked car window to steal its contents are not crimes unless the targets are the well-connected.

The story of all Dark Ages is that when civilizations finally prefer suicide, they do it easily, and the remnants flock to the countryside to preserve what they can—allowing the cities to go on with their ritual self-destruction.

So it has begun to seem this endless summer.

*Note:  Dr. Hanson works at the Hoover Institute at Stanford University, Palo Alto, CA

What We Need In Politics

What do we need in a President, a Party, our Congress? What I’m looking for is people who’ve got their eyes wide open about the strengths in our country as well as the dangers we’re facing!

Many voters are aware of how our leaders have increasingly been running for office to serve their own career prospects! They don’t have a true understanding of government or know what public service in America should be about. They see how others are taking power and they want it too, they have no intention of working for the public’s benefit. This is how many live anyway in this world, so why expect a politician to be honest, right?

Well, there ARE many in all levels of government who honor our government and listen to the peaceful voices from the public. Some leaders in Congress write books on the ills in our nation, or the good things we have going for us. They are involved in making our nation safe, strong and prosperous. Their office isn’t a platform for ‘self’.

What’s important to you in a candidate? Party? Here are some issues that are important to me as we go into this 2020 Election period. (On the list below, keep in mind the position of the candidates party as well).

How strongly would Pres. Trump or V.P. Biden deal with the following issues:

  • ‘Out of control’ mob violence in some cities.
  • Economic recovery plan from the Covid-19 slow-down
  • Increased anti-police sentiment
  • The creeping socialism in many urban city governments where there’s disrespect for leaders, police, public, businesses, govt. buildings, streets.
  • The huge drop in honest, varied info on news sources. Increased control of what we can read on internet, social media.
  • Chinese threat in way of theft of intellectual property thru spies, university positions, online hacking, trade/currency manipulation.
  • National and State debt. Cutting back on funds given to countries who threaten harm to us or our allies.
  • Increased social media censorship of individuals who wish to speak freely. Death threats and job loss for speaking one word.
  • Huge drug epidemic fueled by Chinese/Mex shipments of fentanyl that have been decimating many families, towns across America.
  • Serious human/sex trafficking, abortion numbers in U.S.
  • International peace, and vigilance against our enemies
  • Education reform to bring back humanities, allow parents/kids more choice.
  • Prison reform.
  • Human rights abuses in China, N. Korea, Middle East where organs are being harvested, forced labor, torture, imprisonment.
  • Safer energy.

Everyone should know enough about both major parties by now. The Conventions will be helpful. Most know something of Pres Trump’s record on many issues, but V.P. Biden isn’t known for much outside being the sidekick of Obama, loving his family alot and touching little kids too intimately in public.

The speech Biden gave at the DNC Convention gave me the impression he was more a softie in the political arena, a lover of family and passionate hater of Covid-19, (tho he hasn’t been tested for it yet). I didn’t get any idea from him, Sen. Harris or the other speakers about their views on many of the above topics. I’ve never got the feeling  Democrats have the nerve to stand up against the socialists in their party, and that is my biggest fear, worry about that party.

I don’t understand the attraction to socialism by larger numbers in this country. One thing I know, there’s never a lack of people wanting to destroy or control ANY society, their desire for power is never masked for long, it never fails to show it’s face.

My main concern is that there’s many in the U.S., even people of faith, who’re ignorant of the threats to our country, or are afraid to speak up out of ignorance of the issues or fear of being threatened.

This is one main reason I write, I don’t write for myself, but to share with family and friends who’re stuck in their time-worn dreams of an America that is no more. The good things are still there, and they should be emphasized more, not hidden! We should not fear their loss, but we need to be extremely vigilant in the future and stand up to socialist threats in whatever form.

Will Mr. Biden stand up to the socialists in his party, or Trump do a better job? I believe the President and Republicans have a better understanding of what’s at stake in the U.S. You have to search within and decide how you will vote.

May we all become informed and stand up for this country! It’s easier than you think!

 

Policing In Our Cities

It’s preposterous how some are crying out to defund police, and I’ll say why. Policing is the most important contact we have in our daily life that reminds us we’re a land of peace and order. We all know the use of force is meant only to keep us safe, and as Americans, we love it this way!

Sign on Third Ave, Downtown Portland, OR

I’m in Los Angeles, and like any city with a nominal population, we need police out there so our kids will be safe going to and from school. We need police so Sr’s or handicapped can make a quick trip to the store and back again safely.

On any given day In L.A. there’s car thefts, gang related violence, drag races, abusive husbands, pedophilia rings, drug wars, counterfeit thieves, illegal gambling, international smuggling, bank robbers, assaults, child abductions, terrorism, internet hacking, ID theft rings, protests and let me see ….. homicides! Those crimes aren’t being committed by the homeless, mentally ill population, but by organized crime or people who many times are life long criminals.

You gonna assign some “9-5 psychology agents” with no training in violence, or ties to the community, to police those criminals so the public is safe? Where are you going to find mostly men in our culture who don’t have records, aren’t on drugs, are citizens, of age and some speaking other languages?

(Photo – D.D.)

I never truly realized how valuable Law Enforcement was for society until Marc was involved in a homicide case! I can’t tell you how grateful I am for the hours upon hours of work it took his Detective team to investigate his case.

The incident happened in the middle of the night, so of course their sleep was ruined as they had to leave for the scene to meet up with the forensic team & witnesses. They had a couple hours to process things between the Coroner, Medical Examiner before they had to locate my ex-husband in Portland and give him the terrible news! Following that were days where Detectives had to go over evidence, go thru the video tape of the incident, interview the local business owners/witnesses, pour over a local 7/11 video, fill the D.A. in on the details. Every crime has to go thru a process, by law!

Police had to further scour the homeless scene using their contacts, to find the 2 original suspects, and set up a ‘take down’ with police units making armed arrests. One original suspect had a record and his family had to be interviewed. Investigations have to be conducted by Police in a legal, sometimes time consuming manner. Police work requires a measure of written work, which many complain of as being tedious, so it’s not a slam dunk type of job, where you enlist, get a badge, weapon and handcuffs. There’s many checks and balances to normal police work so that they are held accountable, and only the most highly qualified men are able to handle the rigorous assignments an officer has to do.

I’ve always trusted police, and have never yelled at an officer, or seen a relative,  minority friend, or anyone resist arrest. I have no reason to hate police, I’m not looking for a fight …. and I live in L.A. I’m not fearful of cops, I like the fact we have laws. If I was unlawfully questioned, ticketed then I’d keep a record and jot the badge number and report it. I live around all incomes, colors, age groups and I never see or hear of the types of encounters they show on TV, Twitter. It’s not that dangerous a city. And believe me, there are homeless, mentally ill, quasi gang types in the nooks and crannies of life here, I drive around a fair amount. I’ve been around bit of gun fire few years ago, so I’m scared of those types, not the police.

When it comes to a personal tragedy like my sons, or a mall shooting or a child abduction …. police generally show up in minutes. We need police out late at night to be ready in their cars to apprehend car thieves, stop bar fights, tail stalkers or help someone if their car breaks down. We like Highway Patrol on the highways at night cause we don’t want road races on our streets, or a psycho attacking our child on the freeway at night when they get a flat tire.

In some small towns police know all the residents, and do welfare checks, drive people home when drunk. You want those kind of guys policing, not a “9 to 5 agent”. There’s a huge minority in the Police force here in LA and that helps. One night I heard 2 Hispanic officers giving marriage counseling to my neighbor when she called them for being locked out by her husband.

All law enforcement members sacrifice their comfort, family time, holidays to work on a homicide, a bank robbery or your missing daughter. They are irreplaceable!

Who are the people complaining about the police most?

Is it working citizens who pay the taxes for police staffing? Is it the average voter who’s interested in public safety? The local business owner complaining? The corporations, schools, stadiums, hospitals, mall owners? No! It’s the youthful anarchist’s weaponizing social media, Leftists and BLM …. (not decent blacks).

The people asking for defunding are not criminologists, law enforcement or have any background in policing. No country in the world has done away with policing! There’s no model for policing in a better way than what we have. Some of those calling to defund are caving to angry Leftists, instead of simply standing up to them.  Or they may fear not being reelected.

We all, at our most vulnerable times, want to know there’s someone who’ll protect us or our families. Every member of Law Enforcement has to go thru extensive background checks, have clearance by DOJ, FBI, do you want impersonal people manning law enforcement who don’t have the community at heart? They are in this for the love of duty, community, not for a paycheck like a “9-5” worker who just might take bribes, strike for more pay or not show up if the work is too hard.

There are some corrupt neighborhoods in certain large cities where officer’s are abused excessively, yet still go to work. It’s not just the police that are supposedly abusing people. There are some bad apples in a large police force, take them out but don’t destroy the entire system we’ve erected in the U.S. or it will cause law makers, citizens to buy many more guns, live in perpetual fear and set up our cities as war zones where people won’t travel, shop or vacation.

Don’t believe those on the Left who’re feeding the weak with how bad our policing system is. We are so fortunate in this country that most our police have homes, families in the communities they serve in. It’s too bad we have to have this discussion but there’s been dis-trust among some in the U.S. and we need to confront it, with truth!

For daily crime updates & law enforcement news info:

http://lawenforcementtoday.com 

 

 

Living in Los Angeles During 5/29 …. Protests

I live in a Los Angeles suburb. I don’t think that much about my city in the sense I like to brag about the weather, or put down any part of my community. Wasn’t born here, but lived most of my life here, except for 10 years in No California.

People put Southern California down but it has many wonderful attributes, it’s impossible to count. It would match or beat almost any of your cities likely for natural beauty, weather, natural resources & economy. I’m aware of the progressive politics, the Hollywood cult, but there are many who are moderate or conservative here.

The recent protests/riots took place in Downtown LA, Hollywood mostly, away from the suburbs. Couple leaders got permits and marches were somewhat peaceful in the beginning, but I was deeply bothered at how antifa infiltrated later after dark and produced chaos.  L. A. hasn’t had any problems with antifa that I know of, up to now. I’m familiar with that group as Marc was murdered in Portland, OR where they have a bad reputation. I’ve visited there during several protests.

As the peaceful marches got underway in L.A., the antifa types would come along and mix with the others and create mayhem. They’d break windows, loot or set fire to cars, stores! Antifa were not part of the Geo Floyd protesters or BLM marches, this was evident on the first day, during the early hours of demonstrations. Various news reporters noticed the influx of antifa/anarchist types taking charge in parts in riots in our city, some were clearly aghast at the severity of the destruction, hatred expressed by rioters well into the night! It was bizarre to see these white youths seemingly come out of nowhere and try to claim the black BLM marches as their own!

It was sickening to see antifa nite after nite vandalize, spray paint stores, or burn downtown L.A., or Hollywood stores on Melrose right out in the open, for NO REASON! Los Angeles hasn’t had a major protest since the early ’90’s with the Rodney King incident, we’ve done pretty well. Our universities are so calm compared to the tempests in some colleges Back East.

By Sunday, I was heartsick by the totally unwarranted, wanton torching of Santa Monica store fronts by antifa types! Why that city of all places? There were peaceful marchers there, but a few isolated individuals set about to destroy property, set cars, or buildings on fire. Sheriff Villaraigosa did a good job of trying to maintain clarity, and shared how protests were fine but not looting and arson! But I think the police were overwhelmed by the different types of protesting from various groups, not one group or city to focus their attention on.

What’s very disturbing to me is how people turned the tragic mourning of one man’s death into a political riot. I resent how people from out of town came to Los Angeles and took over the intentions of the more peaceful local marchers who were officially organized to march. As I watched TV coverage we’d watch marchers early, then watch the violent crowd create mayhem thru arson, looting. Then after anarchists finished breaking store front windows, carloads of youth from surrounding areas would drive by and loot the stores with broken windows. Each group, each race, had their own agenda in the protests, many could see it, and some tried to turn antifa away.

Police were flying overhead trying to spot looters for police on the ground, but then another store would have it’s plywood barriers broken down, so they moved to show that. Police were trying to arrest those past the curfew, and the Guard were trying to cordon off streets and maintain a presence. The looting in Long Beach, I believe was done by their own residents but otherwise, alot of the initial rioting in Downtown, Hollywood and Santa Monica was instigated by mostly antifa types. There definitely was some larger scale planning to bring antifa to L.A.!

As a mom who’s lost a son to violence, I would never wish to see any city, any buildings vandalized, burned in honor of my son! I don’t rejoice when people or property are hurt, destroyed! The added personal pain, economic woe, legal hassles, public display is NOT worth it. Doing things legally, peacefully is the only solution, in my opinion. Many civil rights injustices have been changed thru peaceful demonstrations.

I’m called to be a Christian, and that means embracing people of all races. Los Angeles has a huge multicultural mix, and I’m not talking about the large Hispanic culture here. Our county has huge populations from Asia, Africa, India, Philippines, Iran …. you name it, but our problems are minimal as we’re not all piled on top of each other like in NY, we have space to live in our areas. In my job, neighborhood I’ve hardly had any problems with anyone that wasn’t settled quickly. But the people who organize or contribute to race or police riots, want us to think violence will bring results.

There are many peaceful people of all cultures, religions in Los Angeles …. we’re not mainly white! But …. we should resist the divisive rhetoric of the violent Left if we are to live here peacefully!

 

Covid Virus Reveals Bureaucratic Waste & More

Economics is an essential ingredient in any discussion we have re: Covid-19. In this article by a contact of mine in the U.K., S. Maitra, we can see how countries have been caught up in not just a health scare, but a money drain!  (I recently shared from another angle about the economic fallout of the virus on Italy, http://www.marcsjustice.com/?p=6054 )  

Mr. Maitra shares here about the management of Federal funds in both the U.K. and U.S. Very illuminating!

From public health priorities, to foreign aid, to academic bailouts, the amount of tax-funded cash wasted in the last few months amounts to billions, and should prompt a rethink and reckoning.

Every social upheaval changes society permanently, from the Athenian plague during the times of Thucydides to a windy New York autumn morning in 2001. The current crisis is no different, as Niall Ferguson writes more eloquently than I can ever do. But nowhere has that change been more visible, than on the question of how one should view expertise and governance.

This coronavirus has seen some startling changes in people who were otherwise thought very different. From Helen Andrews to Peter Hitchens, conservatives who are traditionally a big-state Gaullists, have turned to borderline libertarian. And given the amount of wasted resources from public health, to academic bailouts, to tax-funded wars and foreign aids, it is justified.

Consider a recent report on Public Health finance in the UK. Liberals across the US have consistently portrayed the British (and European) healthcare model as one which needs to be emulated. In the UK, the National Health Service is regarded as a religion, no criticism is allowed. The reality however is different. “In 2018/19, £220 million of the public health budget was spent on anti-obesity schemes—more than twice the budget for infectious diseases. More was spent on ‘tobacco control’ than on infectious diseases. One of Public Health England’s big-ticket projects has been its quixotic, multi-million pound attempt to take sugar, fat and calories out of food.”

The coronavirus has shown the depths to which the bureaucracy is responsible for all the problems we are facing. Around £400,000 were given to academics to study football fans drinking, and around £795,463 to train Imams in Bangladesh about second-hand smoke in mosques. Most of the public health budgets went to local councils, manned by career bureaucrats lobbying for higher alcohol taxes, and fizzy drinks. Everyone remembers London mayoralty’s bizarre crusade against “beach body ready” commercials. Money is likewise usually spent on idiotic hairbrained schemes, thought out by social-justice warrior “experts”.

Anyone asking for more tax-and-spend model on healthcare, from now on should remember that all those tax-dollars would be spent on such schemes. You’d see more “solidarity” or anti-obesity campaigns or such nonsense instead of grants to sew masks for seamstresses.

A pandemic survivor –

The lack of accountability isn’t any better in the US. To give just one example, field hospitals were constructed all over the country, which cost over $660 million. Many of these had to stand down “without treating a single patient.”

In the education reform sector, it is even worse. Ever since the crisis started, I tried to keep a track on how much cash is being wasted on the higher-ed sector, and have written about how to stop that. Unfortunately without any federal oversight the cash spigot was opened. And only 8 out of the top 100 wealthy universities have refused any cash bailout. The total amount of endowment of these top hundred wealthy colleges receiving the tax-funded relief is over $600 million, more than the GDP of the majority of African and Asian countries.

In foreign aid and funding, the US and the UK tops the donors in the entire planet. The 2020 budget of total US foreign aid (after cuts) was around $40 billion. Around 40 percent of that budget goes to just ten countries, including Afghanistan, Iraq, Pakistan and Ethiopia. Aside from the US, the UK is the largest funder of the WHO, with Washington spending $436.8 million followed by London standing at $318.7 million. Meanwhile, around 400,000 Turkish gowns ordered for the NHS in UK was found out to be “useless” and below the safety standards, while the FDA had to ban the Chinese masks being sold by over 65 Chinese designated manufacturers as they were sub-par.

Ever since the crisis started, there were paeans written about “expertise” and tweets about how one should revere “SCIENCE!!!” in capital letters, as if science is some sort of religion to be revered. While talks of holding the government accountable is often heard, no one actually holds the people accountable, those same people who are actually responsible for glibly perpetuating the same craven arguments. The only lesson from this crisis is not simply one about diversifying supply-chains from a Chinese monopoly, but also about not letting government agencies monopolize on spending, given that they have been responsible for such criminal mismanagement in the last few months.

A “faith” in “expertise” is about as destructive as any other faith in anything which requires evidence, and evidence suggests that the story of this crisis is a story of wastage of public funds, by those who consistently appealed to such authorities. History, economics, are also important not just a blind obedience to science and expertise. Context is needed, not just raw data dump. Politics is about tough choices, and prioritization. Most people blathering about “science” on twitter are practically dumb about those. The smug sense of superiority about “believing in science and expertise” has led to an enormously flawed deferential treatment of one, and only one narrow ideological section of experts, while ignoring everyone else.

Experts have been replaced by bureaucrats and career social-justice academics. While for those whose social-conservative credentials are as robust as the next man, these fiascoes should be enough to turn anyone sympathetic about more libertarian warnings against mega-government agencies leading such efforts. A certain section of conservatives lately seemed enamored with more government intervention. They are yet to provide answers on what they propose to do, to avoid such massive waste.

Life as a Hermit During Covid

It’s been something being held captive in my own home because of pandemic directives. At the beginning of the stay-at-home-orders I spent hours online researching info on the virus from various medical sources or reporters around the globe. I read alot about the way the virus hit Italy, Taiwan, Iran, other places.

Like you, I wondered what in the heck was going on with grocery store lines, restaurants open at the curbside and schools getting closed? I started planning on having food shortages, not toilet tissue shortages. I invented ways to wear a mask, so I didn’t look like I was walking around with a sense of disease following me. I didn’t want to look like a zombie like the many wearing the same kind of medical mask.

No one is happy about having to adjust their life to living like a hermit. Much was shared about the hideous side of the virus, but I refused to get into fear. I got out of my own anxieties and asked how my family, co-workers and neighbors were doing, trying to decipher if they really were okay, underneath our chit chat? I know for some this has been a hard time not just with the disease scare, but with family at home, potential financial ruin.

Aside from the deaths due to Covid-19, I’m beyond sad about the threat to our entire economy and our national security! I’ve wracked my brain thinking of how to compare this pandemic to other diseases our nation has been threatened by. I asked myself if we were going to go thru something like the 1918 Spanish Flu? How will shutting business down affect the economy? I saw the huge drops in the stock market, but from what I read on Twitter, we haven’t seen the worst yet. It’s heartbreaking to see business owners ‘go under’ already around me, can the govt. save them all?

Did folks in the 1918 Influenza joke about the flu like we do the Covid-19 virus? I wonder have we joked about this virus out of fear, or not knowing the future re: job or college? There’s been jokes on Twitter often as I think we’ve received so many directives from national & local leaders about masks, washing hands, distancing, beaches and shopping, etc. it’s been over-kill almost!

I personally made photos of myself wearing a mask to relieve stress, and to show I could adapt my own way. It’s a way to steer off ‘captivity’ fever depression, just ‘do’ something creative. I think the humor and jokes on Twitter also came from our being sick about the rhetoric around us. There was sarcasm in our comments too as many were unable to understand the reasoning behind the directives from some government officials, The models used weren’t clear or in line with the medical experience of some of us.

While we were hermits, most of us on Twitter didn’t sit back and fear we’d come down with the virus. I formulated a plan for myself and shared it with my oldest son. He lives in AZ, where the spread is very minimal, I was glad he and his environment was safe. I made sure I took care of my immune system, a Dr. friend sent me loads of immunity supplements. I spoke with a few other close loved ones, it meant alot to be open about our relationships, our lives.

Isolation can be catastrophic for every age group! As a Preschool Director/teacher for years, I know kids do not know how to deal automatically with it. Shutting people inside can create an even more abusive home life.  Isolation can seem like punishment to some who have compromised mental health, suicide hot lines and attempted suicides have risen at least 34%. This family and mental health reality was something some leaders should have taken into consideration more fully!

My general reaction re: the virus at first was to resent it’s threat on me and my loved ones. I understood it ravaged a certain part of Italy, but I read why it spread so fast there. I wish CA officials had read a wide variety of material themselves, so they would have had more accurate models on what was driving the virus here. No one likes to be given ‘scare’ tactics, especially on something so important as closing down an entire culture.

The virus was a real threat, but there was little discussion except on Twitter, articles in papers on creative, practical ways to handle it and bring the least repercussion in the end. Govt. officials should have listened to those in business, local governments, Dr’s, and others as they formulated a plan to close down certain areas of our state (other states).

My health is important to me, it’s not an afterthought. I chose my Physician because he honors my need to know what’s going on, he’s takes care of my health needs so well. He isn’t an alarmist, like the main officials in CA were, telling us we’d end up as bad as New York in 2 weeks, back in mid-March! We came nowhere near New Yorks numbers.

The best approach would have been to get good advisors and look at our state for it’s own individual makeup. 49% of CA deaths came from nursing homes! We should have been notified of that so the public at large wouldn’t be so fearful, and those homes should have been quarantined fast!! Heath care workers contracted 10% of the cases and they should have been valued and protected immediately! An astounding 73% of all deaths in CA came from Latino community.

Just imagine if the State would have worked with the Hispanic community to educate and isolate those who were vulnerable! We were recording cases, deaths all along, I read the results every day in the LA Times. We also knew that the morbidly obese, COPD, & respiratory patients were more prone to death from Covid than were other patients. We could have adjusted our protocols as we went along so we didn’t ‘punish’ everyone in society! The public at large was not in danger, children hardly affected!

We live in such a bureaucratic age. We need people to step up and bring common sense back to government!

Diary of I.C.U. Dr. Jason Hill in N.Y.

This journal of life in an I.C.U. ward is a startling depiction of the lives of those involved in the serious cases of the Covid 19 virus. The story doesn’t hold back, but brings a depth of humanity to this tragedy that is sorely missing from most of the news surrounding the pandemic.

Keep your immune system and hopes up, so you stay clear of this virus the best you can!

Covid at 40 –

The eyes stay with you. In peace time most of those we intubate are chronically ill, or profoundly confused, or unconscious and unaware of the world around them. Covid has changed the equation. Most of my patients now remain awake and alert until the end. These days the ER is permeated with frank conversations about death and dying and what a chance to live entails. It is a hard thing to tell a healthy and functional person who felt fine and well six days ago they may be dead in a day or two and humbly ask how aggressive they want us to be.

A chance to live comes with the risk of dependence on life support and pain. The alternative is the guarantee of an imminent but peaceful death. I have never had more harrowing, more frequent, more brutally honest, more meaningful, more exhausting conversations in my life. Complete strangers open up to you in profound ways during such times and you can only hope both your expertise and your humanity serve them well. And the eyes stay with you.

For those I intubate, those who choose intubation, I often find myself having a final stare. After all the words are spoken, the decisions made, the medications drawn, the bed positioned, the tubes and drips and ventilators readied, there is a final stare. It is a stare of intention. It is a moment of humanity. It is a shared space, a hallowed space, the final moment of someone’s awareness, possibly forever. It is a space where fear and hope mingle, where autonomy fades into trust, uncertainly into acceptance, and all they have left is placed firmly in your gloved hands. It’s brief, and you’re busy, and time is essential, but you find a few seconds to share this final breath. That stare lasts a moment. That stare lasts a lifetime. And the eyes stay with you.

I see them often in my mind, and although haunting I am glad to keep them with me. I warm my hands on the raw humanity inherent in such moments and they empower me to carry on. For carry on we must because the room is full of agony and sickness and fear that must be attended to quickly and humanely.

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I am asleep before a long night shift. I awake to the sound of cheers and yells. To hooting and hollering. To the clanging of cow bells and the banging of drums. They yell and shout and scream to honor us. They shout from rooftops and ground floors and all the windows and balconies in between. It wakes me up. I am scared shitless. I think the building is on fire. I run around panicked and confused for several minutes. Why do the fire sirens sound like drums and cowbells? Do I even have a fire escape?? WTF is going on?? Oh. Ohhhhhhh. Ok. I get it now. My heart is still racing, but now I’m grinning. Thanks. I feel grateful…mostly.

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Oxygen Rounds is a new term we have become all too familiar with. I have a hospital full of medications. Antibiotics and anti-virals and sedatives and vasopressors and steroids and opiates. But the only truly effective medicine we have is Oxygen. We blow it at high flow rates into people’s mouths and nostrils, a crutch to help the lungs that are struggling and staggering. And it’s in a shorter supply than I’d like. It flows forever from spickets on the walls, but we have many times more patients than spickets and even fewer rooms so an ever increasing number of patients on stretchers line hallways further and further from the spickets on the walls. We place portable tanks next to stretchers, but the tanks run out and we can’t refill them fast enough. Once per hour, sometimes twice, I walk the halls, hunting for gauges approaching empty and hoping the cabinet holds a replacement. Invariably I find empty ones and hope it hasn’t been empty long. Invariably someone is turning blue. It’s no one’s fault. it’s everyone’s fault. it’s Covid’s fault. And there just aren’t enough eyes and hands to keep up. I mutter a promise to check three times next hour. I pull a step ladder from the utility closet and string plastic connecters end to end to end threading them from wall spickets through corrugated ceiling tiles to drop down above patients’ heads in the hallway so they aren’t reliant on a tank. It’s hard to tell which knob goes to who, but at least it doesn’t run out. It’s a strange time when a step ladder becomes a more useful tool than a stethoscope.

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I admitted four of my colleagues today. Four of them. They had the usual symptoms. A week or so of cough and chills, fever and body aches, fatigue and loss of smell. They stayed at home and took Tylenol and sipped chicken soup and wondered which patient they had gotten it from. They stayed inside and washed their hands and waited to feel better. But better never came. The cough worsened, they had trouble walking around their home without getting winded, and they knew all too well what that meant, so they came, each of them, not knowing the others were doing the same. I’m in a room with four chairs housing four colleagues with oxygen flowing into their four noses. I’m used to seeing strangers, people I care about because they’re human, but a stranger still. I can maintain a detached distanced. This is different. These are my friends and colleagues. These are the people I suit up with and go to battle beside. This is my team. I’ve had harrowing experiences beside them for years. They keep me sane and effective and capable. Together we’ve saved lives and lost lives and everything in between. But now they are on the other side of the curtain. Their coughs hurt my ears more, their fear becomes my fear, I check on them to the point of harassment, can’t help it, can’t fix it, they’re on a path I can’t cure, can only support through. Can only stand beside them and hope. They try to reassure me, a strange role reversal that belies their strength. I well up with a deep respect. I well up with tears. The front line really feels like the front today.

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The makers are my favorite people this week. Several days ago I intubated without a face shield. It was three in the morning and we had run out. There were simply more intubations than face shields and we had burned through the stash. But a patient came in and was suffocating in their own lungs and needed a breathing tube, so they got one, and they got one from me, and I did not have the proper armor. Today I stand in a room with hundreds and hundreds of face shields. They are pulled hot off the 3D printers like newspapers off a press. They are arranged on tables by volunteers who add elastic bands and attach shields to complete the ensemble. In the background the gentle hum of a dozen printers working around the clock is an echo of the thousands of engineers and designers, seamstresses and manufacturers, cooks and delivery workers and writers all contributing to the cause. Each shield is a person protected. Each volunteer is a soldier in the fight. I feel less alone.

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Oxygen means something different in this new reality. In peace time an oxygen level below 95% is bad. An oxygen level below 95% on a non-rebreather face mask is terrifying. That’s a no-brainer. That gets fixed quickly or that gets intubated. Everything is different now. We hang face masks of oxygen on people with 85-90% saturations for days. They are on the edge of the cliff with one foot dangling and there they stay. Will they inevitably fall off? Are we helping or merely delaying? No one knows. Ventilators are in short supply, ICU beds are full, and ICU docs are tired. We’re all tired. So we temporize, hoping a few will sneak by and not get intubated. Hoping someone doesn’t fall off the cliff when we aren’t looking. The monitors don’t help. They are all beeping and blaring all the time from every direction. The background music of a pandemic. They only tell us what we know, everyone is sick. Only our eyes and experience can help us now. I take another lap around the ER to check the cliffsides.

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I’m baking a mask tonight. My single use N95 has been on my face for days. The backs of my ears are raw from the rubbing of its straps and my nostrils are filled with the scent of fibers mixed with my coffee flavored breath. My mask bakes and bakes, sterilizing it and killing any viral hitchhikers that attached themselves today. I wish I could do the same for someone’s lungs. It comes out warm and toasty and clean. It comes out safe. I set it on the windowsill to cool, like an apple pie from easier days. Worst desert ever.

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All hands were on deck today. Elective surgeries have been cancelled and the surgeons and anesthesiologists and neurologists and orthopedists and urologists and rehab specialists and pediatricians have been deputized as ER and ICU docs. Urology attendings and shoulder surgeons are rounding with ICU teams, adjusting ventillators, and drawing blood gases. Pediatricians are seeing adult patients and monitoring oxygen levels. Outpatient docs are working in tents in front of the ER to decompress volume. General surgeons are going from room to room to room putting in Central lines and Arterial lines on our sickest patients. Anesthesiologists are running in to intubate. It remains busy. It remains overrun with sickness and suffering. But today we have more help. Today we have reinforcements. Today we feel like one big army devoted to one fight. Today it feels like maybe, just maybe, we can keep up.

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Es El Fin. Today I’m a palliative care doc. This man is not doing well. This man needs intubation to survive. He’s 67 and only speaks Spanish. He’s healthy. He’s dying. His oxygen is very low. His respiratory rate is very high. He’s getting tired. He’s suffocating in his own body. He needs to be intubated. He doesn’t want to be intubated. He doesn’t want to be on a machine. We ask if we can help call his family to say goodbye. He looks at us puzzled, somehow still not fully understanding. Esta Muriendo senior. Es el fin. This is the end. He gets it. He’s stoic despite the tears. He’s strong. If this disease attacked character instead of lungs he would have a fighting chance. We set up a video call with his family. He says goodbye. They say they love him in a dozen different ways. He touches the screen. A digital hand hold in a pandemic age. We make him comfortable. He’s still drowning but he can’t feel it. He says thank you before his eyes close. I can’t help but wonder if he would have survived had he been intubated. The odds say no. The sense of defeat within me screams maybe. I try to remind myself this is what he wanted. That this is for the best. I quickly forget.

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I give out more juice and blankets than I ever have. In peace time the ER is busy, always busy, but most people are not dying. Very few are dying, and even fewer are acutely and actively dying. The scourge of Covid has rewritten those rules. Everyone in the ER tonight is too sick to go home. Many are dying. Many will never leave the hospital. Many will never have a meal or a juice box again. In peace times I often can’t be bothered to bring someone juice. It’s not a priority. Tonight anyone asking gets juice. Even those not asking get juice. Often it’s the only comfort I can provide. A small ease of suffering. A brief distraction from the fear. It may be the last juice they ever drink. Some nights it’s the best medicine I have.

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We had a patient tonight that impaled her hand with a crochet needle. Right through her hand. Simple stuff for us. Easy to take care of. Three of us ran over. Two more than was necessary. An orthopedist playing ICU doc was walking by. He ran over. He was excited. We were all excited. This was not Covid. This was something we could fix. We did it together. Eight hands to do the job of two. We removed the needle, held it up like a trophy, washed it off and gave it back. Our patient smiled, said thank you, and went home in one piece. It was the best we’d felt in days.

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My colleagues are tired. The patients keep coming. The ER is wall to wall misery and mayhem. Only five people died on me today. Only five. But everyone there is dying to varying degrees and at various rates. The ER is a cross section of the disease. The well who will stay well. The well who will come back much worse. The sick who are stable. The sick who are crashing. It’s all around us. It keeps coming in through the front door. It keeps coming in through the ambulance bay. And my colleagues are tired. We give oxygen. Everyone staying gets oxygen. Needs oxygen. We try antibiotics. We try antivirals. We try hydroxychloroquine. This week we use steroids. This week we limit IV fluids. This week we give blood thinners. Does anything work? Are we saving anyone or just supporting them as they go along a path pre-determined by the virus coursing through their insides? Is the inevitable inevitable? Some days we just feel like spectators, front row observers going through the necessary motions of a play whose final act has already been written. So much death. So much dying. And my colleagues are tired. We’re all tired. And yet somehow, for some reason, I find there’s no place I’d rather be. I leave the ER, the sun has come up and I walk around enjoying its warm tendrils. Its quiet. Stores are shuddered, streets are empty, and sidewalks are bare. It seems peaceful. Its an illusion. But I appreciate it. Time to go home. Time to recharge. Tired won’t last forever. Covid won’t last forever. And there is still plenty of fight in us.

For me, this article brought home how blessed we are with the health care here in the U.S.  It also reminded me of how quickly life can be taken, and how we should not take our existence on earth for granted. May we examine our own mortality during this pandemic and ask ourselves what we’re really looking for, and if we’re ready to go if death should come quickly!

Suspect in My Son’s Case “Likes to Stab People”

“He likes to stab people”, said one suspect in my son’s murder case about the other.

My sons, Paul (L) & Marc (R)

Switching my posts back to my book during the lockdown, and the protests. People need to identify the different kinds of people in the crime, protest world! Some people have honest intentions and some don’t!

I’m sharing a macabre side of Marc’s homicide case, but …. somehow I can now talk about what it’s like to live thru a real life murder investigation, and come out with something to be hopeful about.

One of the first two suspects in my son’s case was one of the darkest individuals I’ve ever encountered. He was only involved in the case a short time but his memory still makes my blood run cold.

The facts in the reporter’s article below are only partially true, her headline and assumptions did not pan out.  Mr. Elder described himself well, but his testimony of Mr. Curtis was far from accurate. (I go into detail in this blog, and book). Crime is not an easy topic to share, but I needed to share this travesty so readers know the kind of terror, evil I stumbled across while trying to get justice for my son.

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Court docs: Murder suspect ‘likes to stab people’

PORTLAND, Ore. – The homeless men arrested in connection with a Portland man’s murder thought often about killing others, according to court documents released Tuesday.

Early on the morning of October 16, Marc Sundin was found dead on the corner of Southwest 4th Avenue and Madison Street. The Portland resident had been stabbed in the heart.

Four days later, two homeless men were arrested in connection with Sundin’s murder.

In a probable cause affidavit, Portland Police Detective Erik Kammerer described chilling details from the night Sundin died, obtained through security camera footage, along with interviews with witnesses and the defendants.

Just before the stabbing, surveillance video showed the suspects, 18-year-old W Curtis and a man police believed to be 23-year-old A Elder pursuing Sundin near the 7-Eleven on Southwest 4th Avenue and Taylor Street.

Kammerer said Sundin appeared to be changing his mind, attempting to run away.

Curtis could be seen holding what looked like a knife, with Elder apparently standing next to him. As Sundin began to back away, both suspects pursued him and Curtis appeared to shove Sundin down violently. Curtis then got up and “ran away with a burst of speed unlike any of [his] previous movements,” the court documents said.

A security guard at nearby Terry Shrunk Plaza said he could hear yelling, then saw Sundin staggering across Southwest 4th Avenue.

Sundin’s blood was found starting in the crosswalk of Southwest 4th and Main. When officers arrived they found Sundin dead one block away, his clothes soaked through in his blood. His body was covered in fresh bruises and scrapes.

Friends told KGW Sundin had a calm demeanor. “I would never have imagined him to be instigating or aggressive. He wasn’t that kind of guy at all,” said Josh Blythe, a friend and classmate from OCI.

Elder’s interview painted a much different picture of the suspects.

According to Detective Kammerer, Elder said he has “Bi-Polar Homicidal Disorder” that causes him to “automatically” imagine how he would kill someone the moment he meets them.

He seemed to know Curtis well, calling him by the nickname “Waffles.” Elder said Curtis enjoyed stabbing people, and preferred to have another person with him when he stabs a victim.

Elder has previously been convicted of sex crimes but failed to register as a sex offender, according to court documents.

A woman who identified herself as Elder’s wife told KGW he had nothing to do with the attack and was with her that entire night. Detectives said the surveillance video disproved her claim.

Curtis was arrested on five charges including murder. He was being held without bail.

Elder was arrested on charges of assault, attempted assault and unlawful use of a weapon, but all of those charges were dropped and he was released.

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Articles like this were the source of our sketchy introduction to the underbelly of the Portland, OR crime world. In the early stages of the investigation I couldn’t bear to read any of this, but listened as others spoke about them. Mr Elder was the one who I felt terrorized us, not the actual defendants, who ended up being quiet teens. Mr. Elder set the whole case up to seem like a total nightmare. He was a thrill seeker specializing in conspiracy, physical assaults and contempt for the law. I wonder if I could have been so forgiving in the end if the real offender ended up being him!