In early September the ‘heaviness’ starts to creep over me. It seems my limbs are full of lead.
So many emotions run rampant at this time of year ….. the beauty of the Fall, the old birthday celebrations Marc and I shared. Now it’s all mixed together in a jumble of sad and happy. Marc’s birthday is at the end of September, and two weeks later it’s the anniversary of his trip to heaven! It’s just the weirdest thing that he left earth on the same day as my birthday too! Replacing beauty and celebrations with death and separation leaves only one possibility …. resurrection!
Yes, it’s been a bitter adjustment at times where I was dragged into a life event way against my will but I don’t seek pity. I always appreciate condolences, as that tragic day shook me to my core! I truly felt the clout of the devil but I can’t tell you how much I relish remembering Marc’s smile, his wonderful ways, his love of life and his desire to make a difference in this world I can’t express how much I get in return for carrying the burden of his loss and sharing with others that hope is possible after tragedy!
We all were created with deep emotional reactions to life events that need to be expressed. We need to share our hearts or our emotions backfire inside. Remembering our loved ones is important, it helps us go on in life, rather than stay bitter, angry or sad.
People suffer loss all the time, but …. still, God is good! It’s OKAY to grieve, it’s okay to feel loss and pain. God’s plans for our future are not reckless but purposeful, no matter what type of tragedy we go thru
‘Blessed are those who mourn, for they shall be comforted’ –
Matthew 5 – The Beatitude’s