How Can It Be, 4th Anniversary

Four years ago seems awhile back in a way, but then again the incident feels like yesterday!
Four years of trauma, re-grouping and starting again so I stay ahead of the ‘sting of death’ –
Four years where I was forced to accept a separation like no other, kicking and screaming on the inside with pain that needed to be addressed swiftly and honestly –
Four years of holding onto hope when none seemed available at first –
Four years of keeping my nose to the grind stone and working for justice for my son, forgiveness for the offenders and a writing legacy only a parent and fallen child can send out!
I hope no parent ever has to go thru what our family and friends went thru! It’s  not the easiest life event to master …. but, it’s manageable!
     ‘Oh, give thanks to the Lord, for His mercy endures forever.’
It’s not a sign of weakness to say you can’t make it without God cause we think of the loss of loved ones, our struggles in all the wee moments of the day and know it’s Gods grace that many times gives us hope or fresh ideas to continue on our journey. Only those who have no sense of the beauty of creation or understanding of the vast ways humans love and suffer will say ‘there’s no God!’
No, I haven’t gotten over him yet’?
              ‘Oh, give thanks to the Lord, for His mercy endures forever.’
What do you mean, God …. ‘give thanks, Your mercy endures forever’?
I know this isn’t the ‘end’, it’s not the final say about Marc’s legacy!
               Give thanks,  My mercy endures forever.’
 Okay, Father ….. I think I understand,
      You’ll walk this out with me, every step of the way! 
             Your way wins, not mine! 
Song: Pam Thum – ‘Love Sees’

One comment

  1. Rita says:

    Hi Diane… it’s Rita from the Preschool. Praying for you as you lean on God for strength during these hard times. I am learning from you.

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