Preface For My Book

As my book nears completion and publication, will be sharing more info with you.  Here’s the PREFACE which tells prospective readers how the book came about and why they should buy it ~

                                 “Faced My Fears in Portland”                                                                                                     Preface

This book’s been written with you in mind. I believe you’re the kind of person who’s always trying to sort through the tough issues of life. Most people aren’t curious about a homicide, but you’re reading these pages, so you’re different.

I’ve wanted to have this conversation with you about crime because I believe America is at a crossroads and needs more discussion on the topic of violence. This book may help you evaluate what’s going on in our current cultural flux. We have traditionalists saying life has precious value and some on Twitter saying “cancel culture, write new norms”. This paradigm change needs to be resisted and met with a definitive reply!

There’s a dialogue going on inside you about crime, violence.  A few years back it used to be everyone had nightmares about being attacked by ‘Jaws’. Then our culture went through a period where people wondered how they’d deal with the threat of a mass shooter.  In this era of civil strife in some sectors, many of us are becoming immobilized by fears of riots, arson or worse in nearby neighborhoods.

I wrote this book to expand the story in my blog, which I started soon after my son Marc was murdered in Portland, OR in October 2014. I originally wanted to write about the case to keep family and friends informed on the progress, but the ritual soon became a much-needed conduit that helped me deal with life and death issues of my own.  I’ve shared what I went through that made my life more authentic than ever. I emerged from my son’s tragedy free from several deep fears I carried all my life.

Another reason I felt the need to share this story is that I felt it was urgent to show that the love between family members will remain the most important ones God gives in this world, and love will prevail even over violence and death.  I also wanted to share the kind of life that goes on behind the face of violence, so those who are worried about our families and our nation can know there’s much good in our families and cities.

Terry Schrunk Plaza, Downtown Portland. 2 blks from where I stay, spot where antifa gather often.

I’m hoping you’re a reader who’s looking for sanity for yourself, and our nation. You don’t need to be part of any religion or political party to “get” the message in this book. This story, I believe, resonates with anyone who has a conscience, and value for life ~

~   Diane M. De Han

Update on MJ Blog and Book

Update on my book and Marc’s Justice Blog!

I miss writing here! It’s always been my first love, but something had to give so I could finish the book.-

When I started Marc’s Justice  blog few years back, I was 2 months removed from the murder of my youngest son. I wrote to share the progress in his case. I understood a homicide wasn’t on everyone’s list of most desired topics to read but I just followed my hunch that enough people cared about what was going on with the case!

At first I sent out regular updates on the case, and more recently I’ve been writing on MJ Blog about cultural issues that concern me and others on Twitter. During the pandemic I set aside the book at times as I was disturbed by the riots, anti police activity, etc and wanted to write here on those topics. During my work closure I also took on a couple other projects that will coincide with the release of my book. They seemed to come together all at once so naturally.

To be frank, as a first time author, I was a bit naive in tackling a book. I didn’t know it would be so depressing to continually go back and rehash what happened to Marc, and go over my pitiful state. Also, when writing a book like mine there’s a time line to be researched again, and much “fact checking”.

Finding the best editor to work with was one of the best things that’s happened this year. It’s been a monumental learning curve as she’s required me to work hard at cleaning up my bad writing habits, but she’s so gracious.

Couple final things:

  • I’m in the middle of the editing process. Publishing should be in Jan/Feb ’21.
  • The tentative title is now, “Faced My Fears in Portland”.  While editing the book I had to break it down in themes, and realized it centers on facing fears, overcoming tragedy, more than on the case.
  • Thanks for the feedback on titles, I may use some of your words/terms on the cover.
  • Another reminder: Writing a blog is different from authoring a book. The tone, scope of each is unique to the platform. In this blog I take liberties and just write with my spelling, grammar shortcuts. I’m usually writing under stress, with a deadline and don’t want the hassle of long posts. I’m not caring to impress anybody. WordPress publishers is a little crazy sometimes too, doesn’t keep some settings, and reverts back to my former edits, which is frustrating. But, I’m not worrying about that now. This MJ site will be upgraded once the book is done.

Even though I began writing blogs about serious cultural issues like free speech, political deception or censorship these last few years, I’m still the same person I always was. I haven’t stopped remembering Marc and the legacy I’m left with.

Again, thank you all for staying with me on various platforms these years. Your love and support have meant more than more than you know –

A Daughter Lost, Starting Over After A Child Dies

Jayson Greene ( @Jayson_Greene ), authored a book on his family tragedy.  He and his wife lost their young daughter in a freak accident near their home in New York City. “Once More We Saw Stars” is one of those books you can’t put down. 

(Not Greta but a friends child, photo used w/ permission)

The excerpt below echoes the type of trauma I went thru as a parent who lost a child. Our stories differ at the onset but weave a similar narrative. The story in his book goes beyond tragedy and brings candor and grace to a tough topic. I welcome people who can talk of death frankly. I think you’ll like it.
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My daughter, Greta, was 2 years old when she died — or rather, when she was killed. A piece of masonry fell eight stories from an improperly maintained building and struck her in the head while she sat on a bench on the Upper West Side of Manhattan with her grandmother. No single agent set it on its path: It wasn’t knocked off scaffolding by the poorly placed heel of a construction worker, or fumbled from careless hands. Negligence, coupled with a series of bureaucratic failures, led it to simply sigh loose, a piece of impersonal calamity sent to rearrange the structure and meaning of our universe.

She was rushed to the hospital, where she underwent emergency brain surgery, but she never regained consciousness. She was declared brain-dead, and my wife and I donated her organs. She was our only child.
The incident was freakish enough to be newsworthy. Requests for interviews flooded our email while we still were at our daughter’s bedside; television trucks trawled Manhattan looking for us. When we left the hospital, I caught my daughter waving at me from the corner of my eye. A picture of her from my wife’s Facebook page was on the cover of The Daily News.
Over the next year, we became another local story about the quiddities of fate, the heartless absurdity of life in the big city. “Oh, you’re that couple,” a father said gravely when we introduced ourselves at a support group for bereaved parents. The attention was both bewildering and gratifying. We met couples whose children had died at home, in private, with only their shattered family to help them cope. There was succor to be drawn from all this awe and care, and I found myself leaning into it as often as I pushed it away.
Seven weeks ago, our second child was born; a son, Greta’s younger brother. They would have been exactly three and a half years apart. With his birth, I have become a father to a living child and a spirit — one child on this side of the curtain, and another whispering from beneath it. The confusion is constant, and in my moments of strength I succumb to it. I had a child die, and I chose to become a father again. There can be no greater definition of stupidity or bravery; insanity or clarity; hubris or grace.
Lying on the floor, talking to my son in soothing tones and jingling bright, interesting-looking things in front of his eyes, as I did with his sister, I yearn for him to feel his sister’s touch. Then I remember with a start: We were never going to have him. We always said Greta was enough — why have another kid? I gaze in awe. He wouldn’t exist if his sister had not died. I have two children. Where is the other one?
Becoming a parent is already a terrifying process. After a child’s violent death, the calculations are murkier. What does my trauma mean for this happy, uncomplicated being in my care? Will it affect the choices I make on his behalf? Am I going to give a smaller, more fearful world to him than I gave to Greta? Is he doomed to live under the shadow of what happened to his sister?
After Greta was born, my wife, Stacy, and I had a habit of checking to make sure she was still breathing. During that time, we ran into a fellow parent, a mother of two children, and Stacy made a nervous joke about it. The woman smiled. “They’re always breathing,” she said.
I imagine it’s the same for all parents. You begin to adjust to the reality of your child’s continuing existence. Their future begins to take shape in your mind. They’re always breathing, you tell yourself.
Life remains precarious, full of illnesses that swoop in and level the whole family like a field of salted crops; there are beds to tumble from, chairs to run into, chemicals and small chokeable toys to mind. But you do not see death at every corner, merely challenges. The part of you that used to keep calculating the odds of your child’s existence has mostly fallen dormant. It is no longer useful to you; it was never useful to the child; and there is so much in front of you to do.
At 2, your child is a person — she has opinions and fixed beliefs, preferences and tendencies, a group of friends and favorite foods.
What happens when that child is swiftly killed by a runaway piece of everyday environment, at the exact moment you had given up thinking that something could take all of this away from you?
When I am on the playground years from now, watching my son take a fall from the monkey bars, I might not panic. But some part of me will remember: A heartbeat can stop. Hearing a heartbeat for the first time during the ultrasound, and then watching doctors shine light on unresponsive pupils two years later, you stop thinking of a heartbeat as a constant, and more as a favorable weather condition. Now I am a reminder of the most unwelcome message in human history. Children — yours, mine — they don’t necessarily live.
When I realized Greta would not live, I wanted to die so purely, and so simply. I could feel my heart gazing up at me quizzically, asking me in between beats: “Are you sure you want me to keep doing this?” But I found I could not give the order.
Since my son was born, I’ve caught myself making concrete plans for my suicide if he were to die. I will draft a letter to my parents, or even tell them face-to-face. “I’m going to meet my children,” I will say. If the world takes this one, I am not meant to be here. It is a frightening thought because it is so logical. How would anyone argue me out of it? Who would even try?
I do not believe anything bad will happen to him in his infancy. It makes a sort of sense: Nothing bad happened to Greta as an infant. I do not wake up in the middle of the night to check on him. I do not even flinch when I hand him to others and watch them grapple awkwardly with his floppy neck.
Jayson Greene (@Jayson_Greene) is a senior editor at Pitchfork magazin


What Really Happened at Auschwitz


What really died at Auschwitz? Here’s an interesting viewpoint. The following is a copy of an article written by Spanish writer Sebastian Vilar Rodriguez and published in a Spanish newspaper. It doesn’t take much imagination to extrapolate the message to the rest of Europe – and possibly to the rest of the world.

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(My only Jewish photo)

I walked down the streets in Barcelona and suddenly discovered a terrible truth – Europe died in Auschwitz . . .
We killed six million Jews and replaced them with 20 million Muslims. In Auschwitz we burned a culture, thought, creativity, talent. We destroyed the chosen people, truly chosen, because they produced great and wonderful people who changed the world.

The contribution of these people is felt in all areas of life: science, art, international trade, and above all, as the conscience of the world. These are the people we burned.

And under the pretense of tolerance, and because we wanted to prove to ourselves that we were cured of the disease of racism, we opened our gates to 20 million Muslims, who brought us stupidity and ignorance, religious extremism and lack of tolerance, crime and poverty, due to an unwillingness to work and support their families with pride.

They have blown up our trains and turned our beautiful Spanish cities into the third world, drowning in filth and crime. Shut up in the apartments they receive free from the government, they plan the murder and destruction of their naive hosts.

And thus, in our misery, we have exchanged culture for fanatical hatred, creative skill for destructive skill, intelligence for backwardness and superstition. We have exchanged the pursuit of peace of the Jews of Europe and their talent for a better future for their children, their determined clinging to life because life is holy, for those who pursue death, for people consumed by the desire for death for themselves and others, for our children and theirs.

What a terrible mistake was made by miserable Europe .

Recently, the UK debated whether to remove The Holocaust from its school curriculum because it ‘offends’ the Muslim population which claims it never occurred. It is not removed as yet. However, this is a frightening portent of the fear that is gripping the world and how easily each country is giving in to it.

It is now approximately seventy years after the Second World War in Europe ended. This is being sent as a memorial chain, in memory of the six million Jews, twenty million Russians, ten million Christians, and nineteen-hundred Catholic priests who were ‘murdered, raped, burned, starved, beaten, experimented on and humiliated. Now, more than ever, with Iran, among others, claiming the Holocaust to be ‘a myth,’ it is imperative to make sure the world never forgets.

This is intended to reach 400 million people. Be a link in the memorial chain and help distribute this around the world.

How many years will it be before the attack on the World Trade Center ‘NEVER HAPPENED’ because it offends some Muslim in the United States? If our Judeo-Christian heritage is offensive to Muslims, they should pack up and move to Iran , Iraq or some other Muslim country.

It will take only a minute to pass this along. We must wake up America before it’s too late.

(Note:  Article from 10/16)

My Experience With Antifa

I’m sure you’ve heard the word “antifa” in the news! Antifa, or anti-fascists, have claimed responsibility for hundreds of protests in the last few years, especially this summer. They’ve marched, harassed, vandalized, or set on fire Federal buildings, white/black businesses, & state/federal statues. I follow several ‘streamers’ in Portland, OR and other cities, who post real life videos, so I’m up to date.

Antifa should be separated from BLM, the black identity group. Some in BLM have legitimate complaints like police reform, but the leaders of BLM have posted an online statement that is a broad political agenda based on Marxist, anti-god principles. The group has often used physical violence and members have called for the end to ‘white supremacy’ by any means possible.

Antifa, however, are a growing conglomeration of independent or organized cells of mostly youth who are either anti-Federal Govt, anti-Trump, anti-Ice or anti-police …. or all the above. They might be a group of university students, socialists, anarchists, criminals or street people often struggling with sexual identity. I’ve tweeted with dozens of them, I read their bio’s & how they describe themselves. Their existence is no secret, but their true identities are. They basically refuse to be open with their beliefs or have direct dialog with anyone.

They’ve racked up millions upon millions of dollars in damage over-time. They’ve caused some city governments considerable grief and havoc. There’s great debate over who’s funding them, as many are constantly being arrested at the scenes of destructive protests with out of state I.D.’s. Someone has to be paying for their flights, hotels, car rentals, etc. What person or group wants to create such chaos and destruction to America by funding it incognito?

My introduction to antifa was several years ago when a Hispanic guy on Facebook shared his trips to Berkley, CA with friends to stand up for the ‘flag’. I guess I thought the UCB students were young & didn’t like the political Right speaking at their university. A Right speaker had recently been ejected from speaking there. The Hispanic guy shared on FB videos of a group in yelling matches with what I thought were vicious sounding radical college students.

This was at the beginning of the period where Left leaning students were angry and outraged about anyone who had patriotic views, (before Trump). I don’t know if protesters thought the speakers would incite violence, or if they simply disagreed with their views, but the people on the Right were often shouted down, or simply denied the right to speak on campus. Antifa wasn’t physically violent much yet.

I remember a couple years ago Chuck Todd hesitantly interviewing Mark Bray, a Dartmouth lecturer, on Face the Nation. Chuck said he was not really interested in giving ‘violence’ a voice, but in the interest of ‘fairness’ he’d interview Mr. Bray. I was sick to my stomach listening to them. Antifa, according to Mr. B’s book & interview, “have the right to use clubs to beat down the Alt Right”. He was straight faced and unapologetic in stating the use of violence was an essential part of beating back any foe.

Since no mainstream news site has reported organized alt-right hate groups much at all, we can only surmise that the Left’s fear of conservatives speaking at universities is unfounded! There are small isolated groups of white militia but I’ve not read of any KKK groups, skinheads organizing to topple American federal buildings, statues, businesses, police stations or protesting against blacks ….. or the MSM would be all over it! TV media in different cities many times reports when antifa groups are protesting. We know there’s destruction going on in our cities, but we don’t hear of white supremacy groups burning, looting, or plotting overthrow of the govt.

In contrast a few Democrats are actually espousing hatred for “whites”, conservatives, and Law Enforcement. They aren’t just old time Democrats or progressives but are entrenched in black militancy, or Leftist jargon. And these leaders are afraid of or blind to the threat from anarchists like antifa.

I’ve watched resistance movements grow since the 2012 Occupy Wall Street movement in Portland, OR, a city I’ve visited many times. There’s always some new catchy phrase describing their ‘moral’ objective, but their means is always to create a violent setting to destroy American values, laws. They profess to be victims, but choose to victimize their opponents. They prefer to work underground like criminals, and instruct their members thru propaganda on social media. Their violent tactics go beyond the streets and include stalking of leaders, phone or online harassment, bombing, threats to family members and jobs..

This is the type of issue that police and strong leaders are dealing with, and the more informed we are of antifa, the better. They attack billionaires, political leaders, ordinary people, no one is immune.

We need to vote for those who are aware of anarchist groups, so we protect our nation. We need to help people remove the blinders so they aren’t fearful of street violence and protect themselves!

Our Cultural Suicide – V. D. Hanson

Since our culture is going thru dramatic shifts this article may help to clarify issues like the recent protests, the weakening of morals due to progressive strategies, tribal identities, immolation of many team sports, and our university crack-ups.
We have been letting our guard down too long, and we are paying for it –

Cultural Suicide Is Painless

The story of all Dark Ages is that when civilizations finally prefer suicide, they do it easily, and the remnants flock to the countryside to preserve what they can—allowing the cities go on with their ritual self-destruction.

By Victor Davis Hanson August 30, 2020

In February, New York was the world’s most dynamic metropolis. By August, the city was more like the ruins of Ephesus. It is not all that hard to blow up a culture. You can do it in a summer if you haven’t much worry about others.

When you loot and burn a Target in an hour, it takes months to realize there are no more neighborhood Target-stocked groceries, toilet paper, and Advil to buy this winter.

Yours truly in modern urban gear –

You can in a night assault the police, spit at them, hope to infect them with the coronavirus, and even burn them alive. But when you call 911 in a few weeks after your car is vandalized, your wallet is stolen, and your spouse is violent, and no one comes, only then do you sense that you earlier were voting for a pre-civilized wilderness.

You can burn down a Burger King in half an hour. But it will take years to find anyone at Burger King, Inc., who would ever be dumb enough to rebuild atop the charred ruins—to prepare for the next round of arson in 2021 or 2023.

Today’s looter carrying off sneakers and smartphones in 10 years will be tomorrow’s urban activist, understandably but in vain demanding stores return to a charred no man’s land, to do their fair share, and to help restore the downtown, neighborhood, inner-city, or the “community.”

Old Liberal Ideas Are Being Destroyed

We are living in the most racially polarized climate since the 1960s. America’s past, present, and future are in the process of being recalibrated entirely through the lens of one’s skin color. Columbus is reduced to nothing more than another racist white Italian sailor of a half-millennium past. Grant might as well have fought for slavery in the mind of today’s campus ignoramus. Apparently, the Antifa thug thinks he could just as easily have written the Gettysburg Address or sculpted a statue of Frederick Douglass.

The old liberal ideas of assimilation, integration, and intermarriage are being destroyed by the Left under the specious doctrines of cultural appropriation, or “acting white” or “how we look is who we are.”

A new fuzzy Jim Crow returns with racially segregated campus safe spaces and theme houses or the race-based reeducation and training sessions in the workplace—all predicated to stop racism! Somehow selecting strangers on the basis of their race to bully in a restaurant, or targeting old anonymous men and women to beat up in the street by their race, or singling out suburbanites by their race for racial taunts and profanity is redefined as reparatory justice or overdue payback—on the assumption that no one would dare say that the arson, looting, and rhetoric are descending into ever more hate-filled nihilism.

Looking out on downtown Portland one morning –

Our collective future of nationalized tribalism will become what always results when citizens identify by superficial appearance or shared religion. Just go to Lebanon, the Balkans, or Iraq to see what is in store first hand.

Tribalism Rising

To survive, all groups will self-identify, at first quietly, but eventually unapologetically. Some will form alliances of self-preservation, others will war with each other. Tribal gangs, as they already do now in our streets of fire and looting, will assume they are exempt from consequences; and so will their antitheses of vigilantes who band together to guard their stores in the absence of a defunded police.

Liberal elite whites themselves are now uneasy, since the abstract doctrines they so nihilistically advocated, from defunding the police to recalibrating looting as “redistribution,” are now becoming reified and closer to home. They see that when BLM protestors jam a restaurant to demand fealty or lecture on “white privilege” or march into a suburb to wake up the commuter to apprise him of his immorality, the racialists will not qualify their agendas with “except for woke whites.”

When tribalism is distilled to its innate and terrifying essence, there are never exemptions for individuals: you are reduced to what you appear superficially as to strangers. The white felon is no different than the white Harvard president, the black shoplifter is the same as the black physicist. We are all condensed to a sort of collective nothingness, or rather a racial “allness.”

The Self-Immolation of Pro Sports

Professional sports, once an integral part of American life, appears to be nearly in ruins. Professional baseball, basketball, and football might have survived the virus, the lockdown, and the recession—and then maybe they might not have. After all, millions of the bored more quickly than expected got acculturated to the idea of soon not listening to a boring rant from LeBron James or the sad confessionals of Drew Brees.

But what the NBA and NFL, and perhaps MLB won’t survive is cultural suicide as players fragment into causes. The NBA existed on the premise that billionaires were willing to pay multimillionaires to lose billions as a prestige lark—as a franchise became a sort of a huge, showy Louis Vuitton bag. But even billionaires have limits. Snobbery and appearing cool do not always trump losing the equivalent of a Ferrari every hour or a Gulfstream each week.

The NBA, we are told, is a woke industry.

But it’s also the strangest, most nondiverse, right-wing, money-obsessed woke institution in America. More than three-quarters of the multimillionaire players are African-American. Over 90 percent of the billionaire team owners are white.

Yet the entire industry—players, coaches, owners, staff—lecture Americans ad nauseam about their supposed sins. The monotonous sermons have become transparent medieval redemptions—given the mortal sin that the NBA sold its very soul to a racist, genocidal, and totalitarian China—to recover billions abroad for the billions lost in viewership and attendance at home.

Nondiverse multimillionaires, working for even less diverse billionaires, finger-pointing at middle-class Americans on the evils of privilege, in the pay of the Chinese Communist Party, is not a way to win back fans.

Institutional Crack-Ups

Universities are in for hard times. The federal government eventually will get out of the $1.5 trillion student loan subsidy business, and force spendthrift colleges to accept their own self-created moral hazards. Charging $30,000-40,000 for tuition over Zoom is a bad business model in a recession. And the alphabet soups after the names of professors and deans will not make a bit of difference.

Thousands of college-educated protesters and rioters are not especially good advertisements for the building of lifelong character on woke university campuses. Once undergraduate institutions decided to make students socially conscious rather than educated, and once their graduates seem to be neither, then who really finds their mentors essential?

Our major cities, emerging from lockdown, and on the edge of nightly violence, remind us of what Procopius, the Byzantine historian, saw of Rome in AD 538, once the cultural and political megalopolis of the world: a mostly deserted shell of weeds, deserted streets, collapsed stone, choked fountains, and fortified villas where lawlessness reigned and feuding tribes were what was left of a government that once had enshrined habeas corpus.

No city gets a pass from history, not Athens, not Rome, not Alexandria—not Detroit, Baltimore, or Chicago.

After all, there is no rule that just because Bill Gates and Amazon headquartered in Seattle that its mayor, city council, and state governor will not abandon its signature downtown. What once made Portland great can be undone in a few weeks.

Wall Street may run the world, but it certainly does not run the New York City government. Electronic capital really does still have human legs and when the proverbial suited investor thinks he will be infected, short of toilet paper, or assaulted on the street, he leaves, taking his laptop with him. Bill de Blasio is left to govern, like a horned and bearded Visigoth, over an increasing shell of former grandeur.

To venture into San Francisco is to return in a time machine to 1855, a boomtown based on silicon chips, not gold dust, but one likewise lawless, fetid, and safe only for those with private security guards. To the casual visitor, it appears a lunatic place now recalibrated for the homeless, the looter, the assaulter—and the very rich. Crimes like public defecation and drug use, or shattering the windows of a parked car window to steal its contents are not crimes unless the targets are the well-connected.

The story of all Dark Ages is that when civilizations finally prefer suicide, they do it easily, and the remnants flock to the countryside to preserve what they can—allowing the cities to go on with their ritual self-destruction.

So it has begun to seem this endless summer.

*Note:  Dr. Hanson works at the Hoover Institute at Stanford University, Palo Alto, CA

Repost from last Fall –

What We Need In Politics

What do we need in a President, a Party, our Congress? What I’m looking for is people who’ve got their eyes wide open about the strengths in our country as well as the dangers we’re facing!

Many voters are aware of how our leaders have increasingly been running for office to serve their own career prospects! They don’t have a true understanding of government or know what public service in America should be about. They see how others are taking power and they want it too, they have no intention of working for the public’s benefit. This is how many live anyway in this world, so why expect a politician to be honest, right?

Well, there ARE many in all levels of government who honor our government and listen to the peaceful voices from the public. Some leaders in Congress write books on the ills in our nation, or the good things we have going for us. They are involved in making our nation safe, strong and prosperous. Their office isn’t a platform for ‘self’.

What’s important to you in a candidate? Party? Here are some issues that are important to me as we go into this 2020 Election period. (On the list below, keep in mind the position of the candidates party as well).

How strongly would Pres. Trump or V.P. Biden deal with the following issues:

  • ‘Out of control’ mob violence in some cities.
  • Economic recovery plan from the Covid-19 slow-down
  • Increased anti-police sentiment
  • The creeping socialism in many urban city governments where there’s disrespect for leaders, police, public, businesses, govt. buildings, streets.
  • The huge drop in honest, varied info on news sources. Increased control of what we can read on internet, social media.
  • Chinese threat in way of theft of intellectual property thru spies, university positions, online hacking, trade/currency manipulation.
  • National and State debt. Cutting back on funds given to countries who threaten harm to us or our allies.
  • Increased social media censorship of individuals who wish to speak freely. Death threats and job loss for speaking one word.
  • Huge drug epidemic fueled by Chinese/Mex shipments of fentanyl that have been decimating many families, towns across America.
  • Serious human/sex trafficking, abortion numbers in U.S.
  • International peace, and vigilance against our enemies
  • Education reform to bring back humanities, allow parents/kids more choice.
  • Prison reform.
  • Human rights abuses in China, N. Korea, Middle East where organs are being harvested, forced labor, torture, imprisonment.
  • Safer energy.

Everyone should know enough about both major parties by now. The Conventions will be helpful. Most know something of Pres Trump’s record on many issues, but V.P. Biden isn’t known for much outside being the sidekick of Obama, loving his family alot and touching little kids too intimately in public.

The speech Biden gave at the DNC Convention gave me the impression he was more a softie in the political arena, a lover of family and passionate hater of Covid-19, (tho he hasn’t been tested for it yet). I didn’t get any idea from him, Sen. Harris or the other speakers about their views on many of the above topics. I’ve never got the feeling  Democrats have the nerve to stand up against the socialists in their party, and that is my biggest fear, worry about that party.

I don’t understand the attraction to socialism by larger numbers in this country. One thing I know, there’s never a lack of people wanting to destroy or control ANY society, their desire for power is never masked for long, it never fails to show it’s face.

My main concern is that there’s many in the U.S., even people of faith, who’re ignorant of the threats to our country, or are afraid to speak up out of ignorance of the issues or fear of being threatened.

This is one main reason I write, I don’t write for myself, but to share with family and friends who’re stuck in their time-worn dreams of an America that is no more. The good things are still there, and they should be emphasized more, not hidden! We should not fear their loss, but we need to be extremely vigilant in the future and stand up to socialist threats in whatever form.

Will Mr. Biden stand up to the socialists in his party, or Trump do a better job? I believe the President and Republicans have a better understanding of what’s at stake in the U.S. You have to search within and decide how you will vote.

May we all become informed and stand up for this country! It’s easier than you think!


Policing In Our Cities

It’s preposterous how some are crying out to defund police, and I’ll say why. Policing is the most important contact we have in our daily life that reminds us we’re a land of peace and order. We all know the use of force is meant only to keep us safe, and as Americans, we love it this way!

Sign on Third Ave, Downtown Portland, OR

I’m in Los Angeles, and like any city with a nominal population, we need police out there so our kids will be safe going to and from school. We need police so Sr’s or handicapped can make a quick trip to the store and back again safely.

On any given day In L.A. there’s car thefts, gang related violence, drag races, abusive husbands, pedophilia rings, drug wars, counterfeit thieves, illegal gambling, international smuggling, bank robbers, assaults, child abductions, terrorism, internet hacking, ID theft rings, protests and let me see ….. homicides! Those crimes aren’t being committed by the homeless, mentally ill population, but by organized crime or people who many times are life long criminals.

You gonna assign some “9-5 psychology agents” with no training in violence, or ties to the community, to police those criminals so the public is safe? Where are you going to find mostly men in our culture who don’t have records, aren’t on drugs, are citizens, of age and some speaking other languages?

(Photo – D.D.)

I never truly realized how valuable Law Enforcement was for society until Marc was involved in a homicide case! I can’t tell you how grateful I am for the hours upon hours of work it took his Detective team to investigate his case.

The incident happened in the middle of the night, so of course their sleep was ruined as they had to leave for the scene to meet up with the forensic team & witnesses. They had a couple hours to process things between the Coroner, Medical Examiner before they had to locate my ex-husband in Portland and give him the terrible news! Following that were days where Detectives had to go over evidence, go thru the video tape of the incident, interview the local business owners/witnesses, pour over a local 7/11 video, fill the D.A. in on the details. Every crime has to go thru a process, by law!

Police had to further scour the homeless scene using their contacts, to find the 2 original suspects, and set up a ‘take down’ with police units making armed arrests. One original suspect had a record and his family had to be interviewed. Investigations have to be conducted by Police in a legal, sometimes time consuming manner. Police work requires a measure of written work, which many complain of as being tedious, so it’s not a slam dunk type of job, where you enlist, get a badge, weapon and handcuffs. There’s many checks and balances to normal police work so that they are held accountable, and only the most highly qualified men are able to handle the rigorous assignments an officer has to do.

I’ve always trusted police, and have never yelled at an officer, or seen a relative,  minority friend, or anyone resist arrest. I have no reason to hate police, I’m not looking for a fight …. and I live in L.A. I’m not fearful of cops, I like the fact we have laws. If I was unlawfully questioned, ticketed then I’d keep a record and jot the badge number and report it. I live around all incomes, colors, age groups and I never see or hear of the types of encounters they show on TV, Twitter. It’s not that dangerous a city. And believe me, there are homeless, mentally ill, quasi gang types in the nooks and crannies of life here, I drive around a fair amount. I’ve been around bit of gun fire few years ago, so I’m scared of those types, not the police.

When it comes to a personal tragedy like my sons, or a mall shooting or a child abduction …. police generally show up in minutes. We need police out late at night to be ready in their cars to apprehend car thieves, stop bar fights, tail stalkers or help someone if their car breaks down. We like Highway Patrol on the highways at night cause we don’t want road races on our streets, or a psycho attacking our child on the freeway at night when they get a flat tire.

In some small towns police know all the residents, and do welfare checks, drive people home when drunk. You want those kind of guys policing, not a “9 to 5 agent”. There’s a huge minority in the Police force here in LA and that helps. One night I heard 2 Hispanic officers giving marriage counseling to my neighbor when she called them for being locked out by her husband.

All law enforcement members sacrifice their comfort, family time, holidays to work on a homicide, a bank robbery or your missing daughter. They are irreplaceable!

Who are the people complaining about the police most?

Is it working citizens who pay the taxes for police staffing? Is it the average voter who’s interested in public safety? The local business owner complaining? The corporations, schools, stadiums, hospitals, mall owners? No! It’s the youthful anarchist’s weaponizing social media, Leftists and BLM …. (not decent blacks).

The people asking for defunding are not criminologists, law enforcement or have any background in policing. No country in the world has done away with policing! There’s no model for policing in a better way than what we have. Some of those calling to defund are caving to angry Leftists, instead of simply standing up to them.  Or they may fear not being reelected.

We all, at our most vulnerable times, want to know there’s someone who’ll protect us or our families. Every member of Law Enforcement has to go thru extensive background checks, have clearance by DOJ, FBI, do you want impersonal people manning law enforcement who don’t have the community at heart? They are in this for the love of duty, community, not for a paycheck like a “9-5” worker who just might take bribes, strike for more pay or not show up if the work is too hard.

There are some corrupt neighborhoods in certain large cities where officer’s are abused excessively, yet still go to work. It’s not just the police that are supposedly abusing people. There are some bad apples in a large police force, take them out but don’t destroy the entire system we’ve erected in the U.S. or it will cause law makers, citizens to buy many more guns, live in perpetual fear and set up our cities as war zones where people won’t travel, shop or vacation.

Don’t believe those on the Left who’re feeding the weak with how bad our policing system is. We are so fortunate in this country that most our police have homes, families in the communities they serve in. It’s too bad we have to have this discussion but there’s been dis-trust among some in the U.S. and we need to confront it, with truth!

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Living in Los Angeles During 5/29 …. Protests

I live in a Los Angeles suburb. I don’t think that much about my city in the sense I like to brag about the weather, or put down any part of my community. Wasn’t born here, but lived most of my life here, except for 10 years in No California.

People put Southern California down but it has many wonderful attributes, it’s impossible to count. It would match or beat almost any of your cities likely for natural beauty, weather, natural resources & economy. I’m aware of the progressive politics, the Hollywood cult, but there are many who are moderate or conservative here.

The recent protests/riots took place in Downtown LA, Hollywood mostly, away from the suburbs. Couple leaders got permits and marches were somewhat peaceful in the beginning, but I was deeply bothered at how antifa infiltrated later after dark and produced chaos.  L. A. hasn’t had any problems with antifa that I know of, up to now. I’m familiar with that group as Marc was murdered in Portland, OR where they have a bad reputation. I’ve visited there during several protests.

As the peaceful marches got underway in L.A., the antifa types would come along and mix with the others and create mayhem. They’d break windows, loot or set fire to cars, stores! Antifa were not part of the Geo Floyd protesters or BLM marches, this was evident on the first day, during the early hours of demonstrations. Various news reporters noticed the influx of antifa/anarchist types taking charge in parts in riots in our city, some were clearly aghast at the severity of the destruction, hatred expressed by rioters well into the night! It was bizarre to see these white youths seemingly come out of nowhere and try to claim the black BLM marches as their own!

It was sickening to see antifa nite after nite vandalize, spray paint stores, or burn downtown L.A., or Hollywood stores on Melrose right out in the open, for NO REASON! Los Angeles hasn’t had a major protest since the early ’90’s with the Rodney King incident, we’ve done pretty well. Our universities are so calm compared to the tempests in some colleges Back East.

By Sunday, I was heartsick by the totally unwarranted, wanton torching of Santa Monica store fronts by antifa types! Why that city of all places? There were peaceful marchers there, but a few isolated individuals set about to destroy property, set cars, or buildings on fire. Sheriff Villaraigosa did a good job of trying to maintain clarity, and shared how protests were fine but not looting and arson! But I think the police were overwhelmed by the different types of protesting from various groups, not one group or city to focus their attention on.

What’s very disturbing to me is how people turned the tragic mourning of one man’s death into a political riot. I resent how people from out of town came to Los Angeles and took over the intentions of the more peaceful local marchers who were officially organized to march. As I watched TV coverage we’d watch marchers early, then watch the violent crowd create mayhem thru arson, looting. Then after anarchists finished breaking store front windows, carloads of youth from surrounding areas would drive by and loot the stores with broken windows. Each group, each race, had their own agenda in the protests, many could see it, and some tried to turn antifa away.

Police were flying overhead trying to spot looters for police on the ground, but then another store would have it’s plywood barriers broken down, so they moved to show that. Police were trying to arrest those past the curfew, and the Guard were trying to cordon off streets and maintain a presence. The looting in Long Beach, I believe was done by their own residents but otherwise, alot of the initial rioting in Downtown, Hollywood and Santa Monica was instigated by mostly antifa types. There definitely was some larger scale planning to bring antifa to L.A.!

As a mom who’s lost a son to violence, I would never wish to see any city, any buildings vandalized, burned in honor of my son! I don’t rejoice when people or property are hurt, destroyed! The added personal pain, economic woe, legal hassles, public display is NOT worth it. Doing things legally, peacefully is the only solution, in my opinion. Many civil rights injustices have been changed thru peaceful demonstrations.

I’m called to be a Christian, and that means embracing people of all races. Los Angeles has a huge multicultural mix, and I’m not talking about the large Hispanic culture here. Our county has huge populations from Asia, Africa, India, Philippines, Iran …. you name it, but our problems are minimal as we’re not all piled on top of each other like in NY, we have space to live in our areas. In my job, neighborhood I’ve hardly had any problems with anyone that wasn’t settled quickly. But the people who organize or contribute to race or police riots, want us to think violence will bring results.

There are many peaceful people of all cultures, religions in Los Angeles …. we’re not mainly white! But …. we should resist the divisive rhetoric of the violent Left if we are to live here peacefully!


Covid Virus Reveals Bureaucratic Waste & More

Economics is an essential ingredient in any discussion we have re: Covid-19. In this article by a contact of mine in the U.K., S. Maitra, we can see how countries have been caught up in not just a health scare, but a money drain!  (I recently shared from another angle about the economic fallout of the virus on Italy, )  

Mr. Maitra shares here about the management of Federal funds in both the U.K. and U.S. Very illuminating!

From public health priorities, to foreign aid, to academic bailouts, the amount of tax-funded cash wasted in the last few months amounts to billions, and should prompt a rethink and reckoning.

Every social upheaval changes society permanently, from the Athenian plague during the times of Thucydides to a windy New York autumn morning in 2001. The current crisis is no different, as Niall Ferguson writes more eloquently than I can ever do. But nowhere has that change been more visible, than on the question of how one should view expertise and governance.

This coronavirus has seen some startling changes in people who were otherwise thought very different. From Helen Andrews to Peter Hitchens, conservatives who are traditionally a big-state Gaullists, have turned to borderline libertarian. And given the amount of wasted resources from public health, to academic bailouts, to tax-funded wars and foreign aids, it is justified.

Consider a recent report on Public Health finance in the UK. Liberals across the US have consistently portrayed the British (and European) healthcare model as one which needs to be emulated. In the UK, the National Health Service is regarded as a religion, no criticism is allowed. The reality however is different. “In 2018/19, £220 million of the public health budget was spent on anti-obesity schemes—more than twice the budget for infectious diseases. More was spent on ‘tobacco control’ than on infectious diseases. One of Public Health England’s big-ticket projects has been its quixotic, multi-million pound attempt to take sugar, fat and calories out of food.”

The coronavirus has shown the depths to which the bureaucracy is responsible for all the problems we are facing. Around £400,000 were given to academics to study football fans drinking, and around £795,463 to train Imams in Bangladesh about second-hand smoke in mosques. Most of the public health budgets went to local councils, manned by career bureaucrats lobbying for higher alcohol taxes, and fizzy drinks. Everyone remembers London mayoralty’s bizarre crusade against “beach body ready” commercials. Money is likewise usually spent on idiotic hairbrained schemes, thought out by social-justice warrior “experts”.

Anyone asking for more tax-and-spend model on healthcare, from now on should remember that all those tax-dollars would be spent on such schemes. You’d see more “solidarity” or anti-obesity campaigns or such nonsense instead of grants to sew masks for seamstresses.

A pandemic survivor –

The lack of accountability isn’t any better in the US. To give just one example, field hospitals were constructed all over the country, which cost over $660 million. Many of these had to stand down “without treating a single patient.”

In the education reform sector, it is even worse. Ever since the crisis started, I tried to keep a track on how much cash is being wasted on the higher-ed sector, and have written about how to stop that. Unfortunately without any federal oversight the cash spigot was opened. And only 8 out of the top 100 wealthy universities have refused any cash bailout. The total amount of endowment of these top hundred wealthy colleges receiving the tax-funded relief is over $600 million, more than the GDP of the majority of African and Asian countries.

In foreign aid and funding, the US and the UK tops the donors in the entire planet. The 2020 budget of total US foreign aid (after cuts) was around $40 billion. Around 40 percent of that budget goes to just ten countries, including Afghanistan, Iraq, Pakistan and Ethiopia. Aside from the US, the UK is the largest funder of the WHO, with Washington spending $436.8 million followed by London standing at $318.7 million. Meanwhile, around 400,000 Turkish gowns ordered for the NHS in UK was found out to be “useless” and below the safety standards, while the FDA had to ban the Chinese masks being sold by over 65 Chinese designated manufacturers as they were sub-par.

Ever since the crisis started, there were paeans written about “expertise” and tweets about how one should revere “SCIENCE!!!” in capital letters, as if science is some sort of religion to be revered. While talks of holding the government accountable is often heard, no one actually holds the people accountable, those same people who are actually responsible for glibly perpetuating the same craven arguments. The only lesson from this crisis is not simply one about diversifying supply-chains from a Chinese monopoly, but also about not letting government agencies monopolize on spending, given that they have been responsible for such criminal mismanagement in the last few months.

A “faith” in “expertise” is about as destructive as any other faith in anything which requires evidence, and evidence suggests that the story of this crisis is a story of wastage of public funds, by those who consistently appealed to such authorities. History, economics, are also important not just a blind obedience to science and expertise. Context is needed, not just raw data dump. Politics is about tough choices, and prioritization. Most people blathering about “science” on twitter are practically dumb about those. The smug sense of superiority about “believing in science and expertise” has led to an enormously flawed deferential treatment of one, and only one narrow ideological section of experts, while ignoring everyone else.

Experts have been replaced by bureaucrats and career social-justice academics. While for those whose social-conservative credentials are as robust as the next man, these fiascoes should be enough to turn anyone sympathetic about more libertarian warnings against mega-government agencies leading such efforts. A certain section of conservatives lately seemed enamored with more government intervention. They are yet to provide answers on what they propose to do, to avoid such massive waste.